只为一段旋律

When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
And I wish I was special
You're so fuckin' special

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here.

I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice
When I'm not around
You're so fuckin' special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here.

She's running out again,
She's running out
She's run run run running out...

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fuckin' special
I wish I was special...

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo,
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here.
I don't belong here.

时年四岁，妈妈在工厂上班……晨晨早八点左右起床，在床上努力折腾半天才把衣服穿好，不料鞋子还是穿反了……邋邋遢遢地晃到妈妈工作的车间！很有礼貌地跟阿姨们说早上好！妈妈把我的着装整理了下，又把我的鼻涕擦干！然后晨晨扭着妈妈讲葫芦娃的故事！这个故事晨晨每天都要听一遍，妈妈也每天都不耐烦的讲一遍！讲完后，晨晨乖乖地坐在一旁看妈妈工作，不时地问着幼稚的问题……九点十点左右，妈妈按照惯例会拿出早就准备好的四毛钱给晨晨，晨晨飞快地跑到街对面的包子店，买了最喜欢吃的豆沙包！豆沙包比晨晨的小拳头大不了多少！所以晨晨用手指着最大的那个…接过热乎乎的豆沙包，赶紧用小嘴吹凉它，双手还不停地翻滚着烫烫的豆沙包！晨晨总是把豆沙包周围的面团先吃掉，把最甜的豆沙留着最后吃！呵呵…一不小心，好不容易剩下的豆沙掉地上了…真是！又想哭，又哭不出来！又回到妈妈身边，想告诉妈妈，但妈妈说过，晨晨每天只能吃一个豆沙包和一包夹心饼干！所以只有期待下午的饼干了……突然想起了童年往事，想起了那时一个豆沙包就能满足的童真！又一晃，现在都长那么大了，每天奔波的不只是一个豆沙包而已吧？要生计，要工作，要学习……有成长的烦恼，有成长后的烦恼！总之，烦恼的很！再也找不回的东西只能凭着记忆写下来，最多陶醉一下，但无法再享受了.